Yes, I really do have something against trends.
Yes, it might have something do with my upbringing.
The so-called "emo" trend is growing at an appalling rate while those who flame against it grow in ranks day by day.
So you'll probably be asking which side I'll be taking. As I am a certified rock enthustiast you would probably think that I'd side with the "emo's" but no. To the anti's? No as well.
People refuse to look at the origins of this so-called trend. If it even is one. They judge that one belong to a certain class only according to how they look. The hair, the pants, the shirt, the shoes. And what makes it worse is that this minority does not do anything about it! Think about stereotyping, a bummer no?
Define emo I asked people. And they give you shit like look at his hair, tignan mo naman itsura nyan. It results in an almost immediate response of what the fuck. This is clearly not right. Emo means emotional. A state of being if I may. And this practically refers to a whole lot of other lifestyles. Goth when you think of it is not just a fashion statement. Cause it isn't! Its a goddamned state of being you arseholes. Sorry for the term. Just a bit heated up.
Emo does not have to do with the lyrics as well. Sadly if we classified songs according to the lyrics the great Bon Jovi himself would have to be called an emo. =] Great no? I doubt people ever looked at it from that angle.
Wednesday, March 5, 2008
And who might you be?
Well as I was quite unable to show up last night to report on my first day at the gym I might as well make up for it now.
It was quite uneventful as first-times go. I didn't have a personal trainer yet, but the heck, good thing someone was there to show me around. Met quite a lot of people this day, pretty much getting out of the shoebox I was living in to move into a balikbayan box. Just goes to show how little I've seen while thinking that I've seen so much. Aggressive females? They seemed to be run-of-the-mill there. Or is it just that the stereotyped image of the Philippine Maria Clara has been ingrained too damn much in my mind? Maybe. A good chance to see more of the world I might say. And one more thing that I noticed that age did not seem to be too much of a hindrance there, as women well beyond my age were actually flirting with me. Maybe? Probably disillusioned as fatigue lay in each of my sinews and muscles. Nothing to lose if they really were would I? But then it could still be just my imagination. Tired and hungry? Haha, maybe it really was.
Today was pretty much better off, I toured Trinity, CEU and St. Paul's in looking for a school where I could transfer. I couldn't help noticing as I passed by the two latter schools that women did pretty much make up majority of the population. And no. I will not take advantage of that fact. At least I'll try not to. Bwahaha. That sounded wrong no?
It was quite uneventful as first-times go. I didn't have a personal trainer yet, but the heck, good thing someone was there to show me around. Met quite a lot of people this day, pretty much getting out of the shoebox I was living in to move into a balikbayan box. Just goes to show how little I've seen while thinking that I've seen so much. Aggressive females? They seemed to be run-of-the-mill there. Or is it just that the stereotyped image of the Philippine Maria Clara has been ingrained too damn much in my mind? Maybe. A good chance to see more of the world I might say. And one more thing that I noticed that age did not seem to be too much of a hindrance there, as women well beyond my age were actually flirting with me. Maybe? Probably disillusioned as fatigue lay in each of my sinews and muscles. Nothing to lose if they really were would I? But then it could still be just my imagination. Tired and hungry? Haha, maybe it really was.
Today was pretty much better off, I toured Trinity, CEU and St. Paul's in looking for a school where I could transfer. I couldn't help noticing as I passed by the two latter schools that women did pretty much make up majority of the population. And no. I will not take advantage of that fact. At least I'll try not to. Bwahaha. That sounded wrong no?
Tuesday, March 4, 2008
Temeraire
After oh so long I finally faced up to my problems. I went to UST just a few hours ago and my father confronted me on the whole truth. So all mymistakes and shortcomings were then exposed. For some reason I actually feel better now, no longer worrying about what could happen. It feels good knowing that the truth is out though the fact that I put my parents down is unexcusable. I wasted time, effort and money, with the latter being the least of it. At least its over now. I can breath easy for the time-being.
So now were coming up with solutions to it. Probable courses and what schools would probably accept me. Taking up Philosophy or Foreign Service sem to be the most feasible of choices, and as I do plan on taking up writing as a profession later on these courses would prepare me for it. So be it, I no longer have this in my hands.
I was playing around with Erika this afternoon, talking to her was fun, as talking to most intellectual females is, though I have no intention of taking this beyond the friends stage, I gave too much on my mind as it is, and another woman wouldn't really be helping my self.
First day at Fitness First later on, and I hope it doesn't turn out to be a drag. Like anyone likes drags no? Stupid statement, but then I haven't really been acting on best judgements lately.
I'll be back later to add more. The computers at this cafe are bumming me out bigtime and I'm just on the net, could you imagine how it would be if I was playing? God help me if so.
So now were coming up with solutions to it. Probable courses and what schools would probably accept me. Taking up Philosophy or Foreign Service sem to be the most feasible of choices, and as I do plan on taking up writing as a profession later on these courses would prepare me for it. So be it, I no longer have this in my hands.
I was playing around with Erika this afternoon, talking to her was fun, as talking to most intellectual females is, though I have no intention of taking this beyond the friends stage, I gave too much on my mind as it is, and another woman wouldn't really be helping my self.
First day at Fitness First later on, and I hope it doesn't turn out to be a drag. Like anyone likes drags no? Stupid statement, but then I haven't really been acting on best judgements lately.
I'll be back later to add more. The computers at this cafe are bumming me out bigtime and I'm just on the net, could you imagine how it would be if I was playing? God help me if so.
March 2
And I just told my dad that I got dropped from my course, the way he took it was quite surprising at the least. I didn't quite expect him to take it quite that well. So all we need to do is fix the papers and everything will be all set. Dad got me into Fitness First and a computer course so the time'll be well spent at the least. My only problem now is how to tell my mom, how she takes it I'll never know. How she'll take it really scares me. She might be devastated and well. I'm scared and that may even be an understatement.
And Fria was with me throught it all, supporting me when I didn't even expect her to be there. And that just adds to the confusion all the more.
And Fria was with me throught it all, supporting me when I didn't even expect her to be there. And that just adds to the confusion all the more.
March 1
Its the first day or March, a new start it may seem. She's been acting quite well these past few days. Sweet it may seem, and laconically I am giving in. Its such a change from her past dispositions that the surprise is getting to me slowly.
February 28 : Thursday
Nothing could have averted the confusion I'm going through right now. Stuck between AngelxFria and that other player whom I'd rather not mention. The former supposedly wanting me back. But am I willing to go through all that again?
Some of my friends say no, that I'll only end up screwing myself again that I'll only end up getting hurt worse and that this would definitely not be a good course of action. I can't decide on the latter though, I have totally no idea for how she feels for me. I doubt that she would already like me at this early a stage. I DO NOT WANT to make a mistake that I'll end up regretting. Well duh! Who does. Duh, I still feel bad bout Fria, but a part of me still wants her while another doesn't. And so does everything and everyone else. Lol.
I don't want to rush into a decision, I'll wait for things to develop first.
And so Morpheus claims me.
Some of my friends say no, that I'll only end up screwing myself again that I'll only end up getting hurt worse and that this would definitely not be a good course of action. I can't decide on the latter though, I have totally no idea for how she feels for me. I doubt that she would already like me at this early a stage. I DO NOT WANT to make a mistake that I'll end up regretting. Well duh! Who does. Duh, I still feel bad bout Fria, but a part of me still wants her while another doesn't. And so does everything and everyone else. Lol.
I don't want to rush into a decision, I'll wait for things to develop first.
And so Morpheus claims me.
February 27 : Wednesday
Emptied my character's life-savings for that tux. Why the hell did it have to look so effing good and why do I have to be so effing vain. -groan of agony- She also texted me on this day, led to a 'reconciliation' where I found myself giving in again. Good thing the conversation went another direction.
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